I always say I wish my dad was dead, now he is in the hospital and he might really die?

one thing you can't do is take back what you say. that should be a lesson learned. If he make it through this and I pray he do, you should start loving and appreciating him instead of hating him...everyday...you should be at the hospital right now by his side..Its kind of mean of you for how you feel and act towards your dad..real selfish and you should stop that....I have a father that really hasn't been there like a father should...he gets mean, talks trashy, use to beat my mama when they was together and i hated him for it...My dad is now a diabetic. very unhealthy. he's not doing well cause he won't eat and live right....but the thing is he's still my father and if he ever leave this world I'd lose my mind. Start loving your father. Hate to say this but what if he don't make it...Another regret you'll have to live with forever..go to him please.