Having a near meltdown over electing for C Section? Please help.?

Let me tell you about C Section. I didn't have a bowel movement until I got home. Its makes you constipated that's why they give you softgels when you go home. Now, you have a choice, you can go with the natural way and have fear of being ripped due to big baby and take your chances this not happening(Pray hard), and make bowel movement worse due to the rip, or go the easy way and have the CSection. Now, it's not for everyone, had mine due to emergency labor but to eliminate problems theres good that comes out of the C Section. Recovery on the other hand is difficult but not due-able if you have some help. You can't bend down for awhille and pick anything off the floor but you can move around at least. There is a longer healing process with CSection some as long as a year. I have no sensation in that area for a very long time. My daughter is 21 months and only now do I notice more sensation but nothing life threating. I would be scared to have it natural due to big baby and knowing my chances of ripping and having to go thru that than a having a CSection. You can still go to your appt without doing the procedure and talk to them about it.